This week’s devotions are based on Week 4 of Cross Examined: Were you with him? (LISTEN HERE)
Have you ever appreciated being somewhere, even though at first you regretted having to?
Maybe it was a party at first you didn’t want to go to, but in the end you met a connection for a new job.
Maybe it was the scene of an awful accident or tragedy, but in the end you made a life long friend that became a mutual support in life.
Maybe it was in the doctors office receiving news of a challenging diagnosis, but later you realized the blessing that came from modifying your life choices to be more healthy and active.
In the moment, you didn’t want to be there.
Later, you were glad you were.
Did Peter regret being in the courtyard of the high priest and falling to the temptation to deny Jesus three times? Absolutely. When he realized what he had done, he went outside and wept bitterly. If he could have those moments back. If he could have deleted the words he said and offered words of confident connection to Jesus, I bet he would.
But even though he couldn’t change what happened, he was blessed to experience those moments with Jesus.
He was with Jesus. He watched Jesus. He understood the sacrifice he made.
He probably didn’t realize it in the moment, but later he understood the impact of what he witnessed.
I’m sure he was glad he was there.
Here’s what he wrote in his first letter:
1 Peter 2:23 When they hurled their insults at him, he did not retaliate; when he suffered, he made no threats. Instead, he entrusted himself to him who judges justly. 24 He himself bore our sins in his body on the tree, so that we might die to sins and live for righteousness; by his wounds you have been healed. 25 For you were like sheep going astray, but now you have returned to the Shepherd and Overseer of your souls.
He heard the insults. Jesus did not retaliate.
He saw Jesus suffer. Jesus did not threaten.
He saw the injustice. Jesus did not try to change it.
But what Peter realized in these moments he witnessed is that Jesus was doing all of this for him. He was carrying Peter’s sins of denial and every one of his sins to the cross. He was carrying the sins of the world to the cross.
Why?
To forgive us.
To heal us.
To empower us to die to sin and live for righteousness.
To be our Shepherd.
Peter went out and wept bitterly, but he did not stray away, but returned to the only One who would shepherd his soul through the sin of denial to the salvation of heaven.
I can’t think of a time of sin that I wish I could go back and repeat. I wish I wasn’t there for each one of them. But, like Peter, the grace of God led me to stop straying and return to my Good Shepherd, the one who loves me, forgives me, and heals me.
And that’s a wonderful place to be.
Apply: What situation in life did you wish you were not there, but later realized that God worked a great blessing to you or others because you were there?
Prayer: Lord Jesus, thank you for your love and grace that calls us back from sin to the safety, love and grace of your tender Shepherding. AMEN.